Applesauce Universe Pt. I

A Trip Report of Ingesting 1.5-2 grams of A.P.E. Over Several Months

“Picasso Pac-Man Land” marked the end of an era. The next time I tripped I reverted my dosing back to 2 grams of A.P.E., thinking that for me this would produce a very mild, calm, comfortable (though perhaps creepy) trip as it had done before. Only this time 2 grams of A.P.E.  felt more like 3.5-4, and it seemed the sensory intolerances sparked during the Picasso trip might be part of this new era.

I could only tolerate listening to ambient music such as the Fred Again… album with Brian Eno or Foam & Sand. Heavy bass made me screech to change the song still feeling like tiny abrasions all over me. TV was overstimulating. Even sometimes just opening my eyes was. I needed calm and minimal sensory inputs and would sometimes move into our living room leaving my husband in the den where he could enjoy music with strong bass & nature documentaries so we could each have the setting we desired.

A video I made about the way it looks, feels, and sounds in Applesauce Universe

In this realm I felt extremely aware of my own fragility. Of my very small size. (I’m 5 feet tall and slender; a tiny fairy being) But I felt fully safe and protected and free to be that small and fragile. This was a place where nothing could hurt me. The creepier imagery of the previous trip era was gone and here I felt more like an infant, safe and protected in a womb. Everything here in Applesauce Universe feels soft and wet and warm and peaceful. It makes you want to sigh sweetly.

I’d lie on the living room sofa swaddled in a blanket floating peacefully as if on clouds with my eyes closed playing the ambient tracks in the living room which I began to call my “womb room.” My closed eye visuals appeared very womb like and I felt a bit like I was floating in a vat of applesauce. I began to see lights shining in from neighboring universes; places I couldn’t currently go, but was gently reminded they were there by the gentle diffuse lights shining in.

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These visions of shining diffuse lights became a huge creative focus for me in most of 2024. I became obsessed with the concept of echoes. Echoes as reverberation of moments across time, space, and dimensions. Echoes as more than sound... as memories, as sensation, as light... like when a camera flashes there's a sudden burst of light followed in quick succession by weaker pulses. A single concentrated moment becoming diffuse, but still reaching beyond itself. The way a drop of water creates ripples beyond its point of impact. The way memories defy time.

For months my trips remained just like this. 1.5-2grams each, would have me float into Applesauce Universe for hours. It was the same each time to the point that I was beginning to get a bit bored. I’m ready to travel again, I thought, but the mushrooms knew better and kept me here. In a subsequent post,

The Genesis Point of Applesauce Universe you’ll hear about my discovery of why while on an Orange Sunshine LSD trip.

In Applesauce Universe Part II I will further go into the insights I obtained there. They revolve around our unique soul signatures and the gift and importance of our individuality. 🤍