Letting the Light In: Albedo

Albedo Mushrooms

Date: 2025.11.22

Dose: 1.5 grams

Ingestion Method: oral

I’ve been taking a hiatus from mushrooms since the culmination of my series of intense trips on APE exploring Applesauce Universe. I was surprised to realize it’s been a year, but I had the hypothesis going in that I would not return to Applesauce Universe & that I would no longer feel sensory overload. I still felt that my tolerance would be low though, so I took a very conservative dose. I was correct on all counts. This dose of 1.5mg made me feel the way 3.5mg once did.

Either healing and closing the portal to Applesauce Universe allowed me to be more social this trip, or this strain is simply more social. Either way I never once retreated to my “womb room” and I talked a bit more than usual. Often I couldn’t find words though, and would only answer my husband as he checked in on me that I was “just kaleidoscoping.”

I knew I was beginning to feel them when I became hot, no cold, no hot, but shivering. Mushrooms always cause temperature disregulation for me and a bit of confusion on how to remedy it. Eventually I decided that no pants and a blanket was the move most of the night, but occasionally removed the blanket.

The albedos had a strong body high; tingly and euphoric. They made me feel sexy & as always I was entranced by the shape of my bare hips. 🫦 I kept my eyes open more than usual. Open eye visuals were very geometric and there was lots of light; a warm glow, cast over everything.

The visuals were all encompassing & immersive. Turning my cave-like den into a netted kaleidoscoping bubble I was floating in. I could see light orbs shining in from other dimensions, coming from behind me, beside me, above me. This is an experience I often have on mushrooms and I’ve depicted it in much of my digital art like this one I made in June of 2024

I sighed often while in this bubble. I felt overall pleasant, peaceful… I’d go from feeling like I was kaleidoscoping to “starfishing” … laying with my limbs splayed open, receptive to the feelings washing over me.

Every time I’ve tripped in the past I have a few moments in the beginning where it occurs to me I’ve ingested poison and I have intrusive thoughts that I might die, but that didn’t happen this time. There were only a few brief moments of more generalized fear, nausea, and feeling overwhelmed by everything moving and my misplaced sense of equilibrium, but I easily calmed myself. I told myself, you like this, you chose this, walls melting is enjoyable, and I’d return to my euphoric sighs.

Often on psychedelics my body tenses and toward the end my joints begin to hurt (hence all of my talk on 2cb of lack of synovial fluid). But this trip my body remained loose and I attribute that to the overall feeling of openness and receptivity I felt throughout the journey.

We watched nature documentaries on mute with music and I giggled as I narrated them a bit. “That baby penguin said cawwww… in a shocking turn of events, turtles are the predators of the ocean.” I watched in awe as the vines monkeys climbed on fractalized and lion’s faces morphed making them look as if they aged and then grew young again. A few involuntary tears as I watched scenes of carnage, but with an understanding of the circle of life.

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