The Genesis Point of Applesauce Universe

A Trip Report on one tab of Orange Sunshine Lucy

As I said, each time after the Picasso trip that I tripped on mushrooms, I went to Applesauce Universe, but then I took one tab of Orange Sunshine Lucy in September of 2024 and I did not visit Applesauce Universe, nor did I experience the sensory overload issues that now seemed to accompany every subsequent mushroom trip. Bass and non-ambient music and stimulation all well tolerated. Not much to note about this trip, but I’ll share the 4 pieces I made on it. As evidenced by these, it was a light and joyful trip. I remember thinking oh they call it Orange Sunshine because it makes everything sparkle the same way the sunset does over the ocean. That’s the most notable visual distinction I remember. Everything was sparkly. I took mushrooms again after that, and back to Applesauce Universe…

In November 2024 I took one tab of Orange Sunshine again. I won’t go into detail on this part, but beyond my control the set & setting were trashed mid-trip. Something real and legitimately scary happened. I retreated to my bedroom alone to try to reset. I closed my eyes and began to drift into mind mazes similar to those on pre-Picasso P.E. strain trips. Following a meandering path, I began to enter an area that was very dark and eerie. A black substance was concentrated in a corner spanning out like black veins threatening to take over more territory. They were slowly moving and growing in spiderweb like patterns. I walked bravely toward its center. As I entered, I saw flashes of a place I knew as a child.

I couldn’t see the details of what happened, but I could see flashes of the place. My memory works like flipping through a photo album. Several stills of moments. Only these had been buried somewhere inaccessible until this trip. I realized that this corner had been quarantined the moment it occurred, a sexual trauma, which my mind had cut off to try to keep it from having an impact on the rest of me. But deep in the corner, I found a little girl, a small innocent part of me had been left there. I pulled her into a glowing white heart and set her free.

As this happened I went from seeing dark imagery and recognizing that I’d been fragmented from root to crown since this moment, to feeling whole and reconnected to the divine feminine.

“The Genesis Point of Applesauce Universe”

I came to know that when traumas occur, our psyche creates an entire new universe where we feel safe. I mean, every universe is created for you, and by you… perhaps a post for another day, but there are some whose genesis point is formed at the moment of a trauma (see the orange swell in the piece above, this is its formation.) And then your hand produces and places two portals (the diamonds) one here, and one there. Pulling you away from what feels unsafe; you transport and walk out of the other into the new place you formed for yourself.

So Applesauce Universe was actually first created many years ago, but when I felt fear on the Picasso trip, it caused me to get kind of stuck only visiting it for awhile. In part because it provided the serenity I needed during this time, but also because I was not quite ready to learn about why I’d made it in the first place.

I had the thought that the next time I tripped on shrooms I likely wouldn’t return to Applesauce Universe. Not that I couldn’t, but that this healing trip had now given me options and unlocked a portal to a new universe to explore if I wanted to. This is my current hypothesis, as I haven’t tripped on shrooms since.  I’ve been taking a hiatus for integration. I received a very powerful healing and have needed time to marinate in that. I’ve dabbled in other entheogens since, and a microdose experience, but have not yet been ready to see what new universe awaits me. Soon…

Created the day after this experience as a representation of healing, reunification of the self, & celebration of my feminine embodiment.